Doubt

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Dear Artist,

“Your doubt can become a good quality if you train it,” wrote Austrian poet Rainer Maria Rilke to 19-year-old Franz Kappus, an officer cadet at the Military Academy of Vienna who, disenchanted with military life, began sending his poems to Rilke for critique. For seven years, Rilke replied with letters about love, loneliness, truth seeking, suffering and feeling and engaging with art and the world. When tackling doubt, he suggested that Kappus could transform it into a productive creative tool. “It must become knowing, it must become criticism.” Here are a few ideas:

Girl with Rabbit, 1905 by Paula Modersohn-Becker (1876-1907)

Girl with Rabbit, 1905
by Paula Modersohn-Becker (1876-1907)

If doubt is a crisis of faith in our ability or value, first understand that it begins as a feeling, and feelings are designed to be temporary. I remember my dad once offering comfort while we leaned into grey, alpine sleet in the mountains: “If you don’t like the weather,” he said, “wait a minute.” The art mountain produces some dramatic weather, too — as much ecstasy as despair. Wait a minute — and while you’re waiting, keep climbing.

Do a bit of reverse engineering of doubt’s components in order to break them into manageable-sized monsters. Negative self-talk, people or attitudes are habits that can be changed with a bit of will and desire. A discouraging obstacle needs to be assessed and solved honestly and courageously. Mediocre performance calls for determination to improve skills. If you’re simply feeling bereft of feedback — the affliction of every creative person at some time — it may be helpful to acknowledge that reassurance and encouragement are guaranteed to no one, though these — and Rilke’s — letters can hopefully help.

Reclining Mother and Child, 1906 by Paula Modersohn-Becker

Reclining Mother and Child, 1906
by Paula Modersohn-Becker

Here’s a doubt-transforming exercise I’ve personally worked as recently as last week: Embrace the fear surrounding whatever it was that kicked off the doubt episode, naming as best you can the cause, the incident or instigator. Now, in your mind’s eye, float above the scenario, understanding that the bad vibes are there to be endured and examined for a temporary period. This period, by the way, can be shortened with some steely practice. “Ask it,” wrote Rilke, “whenever it wants to spoil something for you, why something is ugly, demand proofs from it, test it, and you will find it perplexed and embarrassed perhaps, or perhaps rebellious.” Doubt can be used as an opportunity to critically assess your creative choices and defend them or improve them when needed. Watch your footing when climbing the steepest trails. Rilke wrote, “The day will arrive when from a destroyer it will become one of your best workers — perhaps the cleverest of all that are building your life.”

Sincerely,

Sara

The Painter with Camellia Branch (Self Portrait), 1907 by Paula Modersohn-Becker

The Painter with Camellia Branch (Self Portrait), 1907
by Paula Modersohn-Becker

PS: “Nobody can advise you and help you, nobody. There is only one way. Go into yourself.” (Rainer Maria Rilke, 1875–1926)

Esoterica: By the time Kappus first wrote to Rilke in 1902, Rilke had moved with his family to Paris to continue working on his early and seminal collections of poems, The Book of Hours and The Book of Images — parts of which had already been published and had garnered some critical praise. Over the next seven years, Kappus and Rilke would exchange letters, but never met. Three years after Rilke’s death from leukemia in 1926 at age 51, Kappus compiled and published his letters as Letters to a Young Poet. He had continued to serve in the Austro-Hungarian Army for 15 years and then worked as a newspaper editor, journalist and poet. Kappus died in 1966 in Berlin. He was 82.

“Why do you want to shut out of your life any uneasiness, any misery, any depression, since after all you don’t know what work these conditions are doing inside you?” asked Rilke of Kappus. “Why do you want to persecute yourself with the question of where all this is coming from and where it is going? Since you know, after all, that you are in the midst of transitions and you wished for nothing so much as to change. If there is anything unhealthy in your reactions, just bear in mind that sickness is the means by which an organism frees itself from what is alien; so one must simply help it to be sick, to have its whole sickness and to break out with it, since that is the way it gets better.”

Paula_Modersohn-Becker_RilkeRainer Maria Rilke’s complete Letters to a Young Poet is here.

The Letters: Vol. 1 and 2, narrated by Dave Genn, are available for download on Amazon, here. Proceeds of sales contribute to the production of The Painter’s Keys.

“Live the questions now.” (Rainer Maria Rilke)

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18 Comments

  1. Higgs Merino on

    “Nobody can advise you and help you, nobody. There is only one way.”

    Whenever some expert makes a declarative statement , just the opposite may also be true. Silly binary thinking, with foolish absolutes.

    So many elders have advised and helped me. There are at least 17 ways or 32?

  2. Although we all must forge our own path as artists, there are many teachers, mentors, advisors, wise words shared from those who have travelled along this road. In moments of doubt their words resonate and help sustain one’s art practice.

  3. This ranks as one of the best of your columns. It feels very comfortable todays as this is my current space, and, of course, doubt hovers over all that we do, and can cripple our creativity. Especially if you base part of your success in sales and your pieces don’t sell, doubt finds a doorway. It always comes back to waiting for the good moments to return, and allowing those reactions to be expressed honestly and passionately. Thank you, Sara.

  4. Thank you Sarah ,regards ,mordechai
    [ Trying to repost by adding these words because I just wanted to simply say thank you, but the system did not permit my original “Thank you” words because it said that it was a duplicate of something I already said ]

  5. Hattie Aitken on

    “Live the questions now.”
    This is the key to where to start, and where to stay, in truly meeting and owning myself, who am.
    Thank you for bringing Rilke to us today, a very thoughtful and inspiring approach to finding and taking our OWN advice!

    • I thank you for this piece it is filled with everything we as Artists go through. The mind is so powerful and I for one am forced to find ways to lay the self doubt down to lie so as not to govern my life and creativity. Thank you this a huge help.

  6. “acknowledge that reassurance and encouragement are guaranteed to no one”
    Here is an old trick to deal with the need for reassurance – set your work at one end of your workspace, walk as far away as you can and still see it, turn your back and look at it over your shoulder, through a mirror. The distance doubles and as your brain sees the mirror image, it also sees what you might not have seen. This is especially helpful if you have not looked at the work for some time.
    I used this the other day after some time away from any studio work.

    Thanks for continuing these letters, Sara, and for your transparency. It’s refreshing to be reminded that one is not alone.

    • CL McBeth-Collins on

      The Modersohn-Becker paintings are a beautiful addition to this piece. They serve as a poignant reminder to young and old artists that time is not a promise. It is in the doing.

  7. Sara, great inspirations shared in this letter. Thank you. I browsed the book Letters to a Young Poet online and hope to read it. This quote by Rainer Maria Rilke stood out from the introductory pages: “A work of art is good if it is sprung from necessity.” Now I need to go and paint.

  8. Bev Schutzman on

    Thank you again and again, Sara. I always look forward to “the keys” in my mailbox. They never disappoint but this letter feels especially important today.
    Be well.

  9. “This period, by the way, can be shortened with some steely practice. ” Indeed. There was a time when depression plagued me. The deepest holes lasted sometimes for years. Now it is a matter of a good night’s sleep and focusing on the next step. And the occasions are now quite rare. Life is so good.

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