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I’m curious as to the reasons why we destroy our artworks we deem unworthy. I have friends and family who gets mad when I do this, exclaiming, “But I would love to have that on my wall!” I have tried to explain why I do it – I destroy artwork that I can’t stand by with full honesty. “But everyone starts somewhere!” My difficulty is trying to explain what I mean by standing by my artwork honestly. I do not destroy all my earlier, novice work. I keep most of them. There is one I gave away, that I wish I hadn’t because it’s not honest. It isn’t too bad, isn’t that good, really, but truly isn’t me. How do you explain why you destroy some artworks?
Purging isn’t just for artists. Enlightenment is just that – lightening the load of all we carry that is not worthy of our highest expression of Life. Thanks for continuing to write, Sara. I really enjoy the blend of your words with your dad’s. I can really feel the magic of this time for you both. A privilege to share with you.
I agree with Sara and Robert space clearing in art can be cathartic. That’s what I did and wrote last March: If Monet did it, so can I I am in the mood for lightness! So one operation is clear the studio. Most of the junk is now off. But a bulk of painted stretched canvas still occupies space that I long to see blank. I thought it would be hard to destroy a pile of my artworks. Then I remembered that Claude Monet used to order his gardener burn his ‘craps’. If Claude did, I can do it too, right? But I have neither a gardener nor a garden. So the first step was cut the canvas off 30-plus stretcher frames. I feel relieved! Tomorrow I’ll see what next step is..
Reading through this, I remember the story of Jeremiah the prophet on a visit to an art studio. “Go down to the shop where clay pots and jars are made, and I will talk to you there. I did as he told me and found the potter working at his wheel. But the jar that he was forming didnt turn out as he wished, so he kneaded it into a lump and started again.”
Sara, “Scotch time.” Exactly! To our great good fortune you are an apple that has fallen smack dab under the tree. Thanks to both of you!
I have always believed in doing this, clearing out the “clutter” to make room for much better efforts. I can do it in the backyard, even in Vegas, simply by building a fire in the fire pit. Of course, my sweetie is horrified by the idea. She will never understand. The only thing I am a little sketchy about and not sure if I want to continue this practice is, what happens to the cadmiums and lead (for those using lead white) and other heavy metals and other toxic chemicals in the paint? I’m sure most of it burns off to nothingness, but does all of it? Or do some of those chemicals now become airborne so the neighbors can now enjoy them? I am not a chemist by any stretch of the imagination, but it is something to think about.
In packing for a recent move, I made that most difficult decision – get rid of the paintings that nagged at me. I had always been of the mind that one should never get rid of their first or their worst painting, as they are an indication of how far one’s work has grown or improved. The worst painting was slashed
Thank you Sara, for the video of Dorothy having a blast in the snow – and reminding us the all work and no play makes for very dull and uninteresting paintings and drawings !
I understand getting rid of unworthy work. What I don’t understand, as seen in the photos, is the waste of good stretchers. Maybe for some the price of decent wood is not important, and others may not have the tools to rework the wood into new stretchers, but burning the usable parts seems such a waste. I paint watercolors mostly but work on stretched canvas some and I make my own frame molding and frames. Wasting good material is…well you get the picture.
I can’t help it, sad to see the paintings burning. Hope you are both having a good day. Xx
Robert, when I saw you and Sara in your ‘burning in the bush ritual’, I was reminded again of the connection your readers feel towards you and your works. As a relative novice painter/artist, I can’t imagine getting rid of any of my paintings. But then, I haven’t put in my tens of thousands of hours, not by a long shot. Reading what you and others have written, I am starting to understand your feelings regarding the ‘big picture’ of your works, particularly when it comes to what you consider to be substandard offerings. At the same time, as I viewed those photos above in the current clickback I am thinking, “NO NO, don’t do it! I love that one!!” When I take a workshop, I have a special storage place for the fruits of that labour. Awesome recollections and emotions of the people and circumstances of each painting come flooding back when I look at them. Such is the case with your 2012 Bugaboos workshop. The first painting we did was to enable you and Sara and Liz to determine ‘where we were’ on our artistic journey (more or less). When I finished that painting, you came along, took my brush and placed a few wispy mauve clouds across the top above the mountains. Then another few strokes along the bottom for the lead in(s). And then another painting where you said, “Juicy, Verna, juicy,” in reference to piling on the paint thickly. Indelible lessons. Priceless memories. I guess I just want you to know how precious having even a small piece of “you” is to me – then and now. I suspect others feel the same as they witness your purge. It hurts us but we understand at some level. Thanks for sharing. It is wonderful to see you engaging in life and love with your family. Don’t stop………..
I’m with Dwight, I’d rather see those stretcher bars recycled. Thanks for the years of great advice.
Where were you? I could have helped keep the fire burning!! Strange, in a way I do the same thing as a physician. Every year as a new years ritual I burn my old patient charts, the ones that I’m legally allowed to destroy. Of course the patients or their management are not failures (not very often) as they are in carefully selected burnable paintings, but this process gives pause to reflect and see what can be remembered, and learn or re-learn the lesson, savour the insight, and the flames carry it away and make it final. It is liberating. My family doesn’t really understand, but they know the signs . . .the big pile of charts beside the fireplace, the snifter of Cognac, and late night CBC . . .The Signal, and a renewed self in the morning. I’m trying the hour a day, and someday I might be a painter . . . it’s hard. It’s worth it. Thank you.
Touched to the point of tears. Thank you sharing so much. Lost my oldest daughter … almost 2 years now. She was an artist. So hard to go through the beautiful pieces she made. Unable yet to open some boxes. The very best of wishes to you, yours, and theirs.
For me it is a glass of dry red wine. I have been diagnosed with an almost thumb sized tumor in my brain, benign now but eventually pressing on the visual center of the brain. The irony of it and now I am doing the same thing. What is worth keeping from fifty years of art, photography and anything in between or should all of it be burnt with me? It gives a certain amount of freedom to let go of your wayward “children”. Carpe diem!
It’s sad to go through these photos even though it looked like you both were enjoying the “event”. I want to burn my rejected paintings too, but I haven’t yet mustered the courage. Also, I don’t have the opportunity of being outside in some beautiful bit of nature. No, I have to dump mine at the local incinerator– not so poetic.
It must be a wonderful fellowship to have a painter Dad and friend. It also helps explain to me how you are a repository of so much painting lore. The fact that he likes scotch too must make it that much more pleasant. I send my highest regards to you both.
I’ve fed the flames many times. Having only so much space I can’t spare the room to store failures. I look at it as part of my learning process. I wish I did well enough so there was no fuel for the fire but that does not seem to be the case. It hurts but it’s necessary I believe. It’s nice to know that I’m not alone in this, that others share my feelings and also make mistakes like I do.
What a pity… I’m sure the worst Genn you burnt there was better than the best painting I will ever make….
During times of either poor performance or poor sales I fantasize about such a bonfire. I cannot tell you how many times I have “organized” this event. I call it The bonfire of the Vanities. Except that in my “party” I burn everything I have ever done. No “decisions, decisions”. And then I show up at the studio again, for another day of work, laughter and tears. And so it goes…
As a metal enamel artist, my bad (?) work is on copper, which I hate to just throw away. So far, I have a lot of things I have a lot of things I really don’t like, but am saving for the sake of just saving….nothing I make is precious, but there is value in the copper. But a lot of my family and friends want to pick and choose before I do anything drastic…I need suggestions for purging….
This method of redemption, to burn and rid the world of all our artistic sins can sometimes backfire. Looking through some of my old slides I have come across paintings I destroyed years ago and wonder why I did that. Now I cover up most of sins with acrylic paint. Now you see it, now you don’t.
I live by the words “If you have a knack, GREAT, but then it’s another 10,000 hours!”. Everyone has a fluke and occasional break through. And while everyone’s talent is something to admire, it is the artist with acres of canvas behind them and a head of them that I always admire. And like that hair cut or dress from the 80’s where we are “god what was I thinking?” it is all part of a journey. Every single event and stage in our lives are linked to one another. Art isn’t always about making a series of a masterpiece, it can just be about self expression. And it is like when a symphony comes together in perfect unison that we create something that is truly our inner voice as painters…and that occurs at around the 6000th hour! John Ferrie
Sorry to disagree- oh that’s right- no I’m not… You painters paint many paintings to get to 10,000 hours. I got to 10,000 hours somewhere along the way- but by that time I’d still produced far fewer works. So those of us who are more process oriented- whose work completes in many stages- who make time along the way for observation and introspection- who never create something from start to finish in a single movement- who may put hundreds of hours in a single piece- we simply don’t sign things till the work is completed- and we’re satisfied with the results. Now it’s true- I have a couple of pieces I’m slightly less satisfied with- pieces that came into being when I didn’t have any money to invest in some material I could have used to make them slightly better- so I used what I had- but even those few pieces took many many hours and mark my progress along the way- and I’ll never destroy them. There will be too few existing/remaining when I’m gone. I created 2 embroidery pieces in 1973 when I was 20. I’m 60 now. They both got published in a newspaper article- one sold a long time ago- the other I was never fully happy with- simply because of a minor amount of the stitching that I did and a frame job I didn’t really like. But no one but me ever knew that. And because I’m having a sale and currently know someone who’d seen the slide of that piece and collects embroidery pieces- I just sold it after 40 years. So I may not think of it as perfect- yet it’s still perfectly what it is. And it is by no means an embarrassment. And you can see it on my facebook page- if you want to. Some of us can’t afford to burn the recyclable parts of our work- no matter what. That’s a waste.
In pulling the Christmas decorations down from the attic a few days ago I saw a dozen examples of my unfinished and substandard work. Several have leaned against one wall or another, hidden for 20-30 yrs. In seeing your bonfire photos I asked myself, “And one more time, why are you hanging on to these things?” I vaguely recall wanting to “fix” a couple but at this late date starting over seems more prudent. I think after the holidays I’ll salvage the stretchers and have a burn myself. I may have to do so when the family isn’t aware of my plans. There is nothing there I want to see on anyone’s walls. Thanks for the reminder.
Couldn’t you just paint over your rejects rather than outright destroying them? Recycle/Upcycle.
I am a little concerned about the toxicity of the fumes from burning paintings but glad to see you having fun with your daughter. I am also in the reuse it if you can group, for myself, but this process clearly means a lot to you.
Thank you for sharing the wisdom of bonfires and Dorothy’s snows. I cried all the way through the snow romp. My airedale passed away just after Thanksgiving seven years ago. She too loved the snow and this brought back her precious memory for me in a good way despite the tears. I still miss her. She was with me every minute when I was going through cancer treatment, except for those hours when I was at the clinic having chemo or radiation. When I first saw your site and saw that you featured a picture of yourself with your airedale, I felt an immediate connection with a person who is obviously an airedale lover.. As much as I love my cairn and my wheaton terriers, there really is nothing like an airedale terrier. May she give to you what mine gave to me, complete love, loyalty, support and joy.
Hello again, I do hope things are going as well as one could hope in these troubled times. My personal bonfires these days are conducted with white gesso and used as a fresh canvas partly reflecting tighter circumstances and just less interest in wasting good stretchers, and panels. I have had fires in the past but the one of memory was done when I hit the road again upon leaving Tallahassee, Florida back in 89. It was a magnificently large fire that was in danger of burning the tops of nearby trees but the wind stayed with us and for some odd reason the fire department didnt go into panic mode. I am glad to see the letters are continuing and keeping their insightfulness. Thanks. I dont burn as many these days but darned if some efforts dont still cry out for gesso after a few weeks.
As far as I know, gesso on top of paint is not a good idea. Paint on top of paint bonds as expected, so painting over a failed piece with opaque paint is probably a way to go for those who want to recycle.
I’ve burned drawing and afterwards, I’m glad they are gone, a relief! I can see paintings also being torched as a disposing of feeling I don’t want to carry any more.
Motherland Chronicles photograph by Zhang Jingna, New York, NY, USA |
Absolutely…I was totally shocked that Robert and Sara are burning the old canvases! Why are they not be sanded down and re-gessoed for Sara for other artists to use?