Focus

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Dear Artist,

Creatively successful people tend to have a well-developed ability to focus. Counting many of them among my friends has permitted close observation and the chance to ask questions. Not all of them are painters. Most tell me they had to teach themselves the art of focus. Hard addictions are the great enemy of focus, but so are the so-called “soft” addictions such as collecting cars, playing with boats and strategic charities. Petty distraction, business impedimenta and household demands can also derail focus. Fears, both real and imagined, play their role.

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Peter Munk

The ability to focus is an acquired habit that can be massaged to take over other habits. Skilled practitioners know that the other stuff only takes over if you let it. Further, successful focusers often have the quick ability to develop work plans and plans of attack — visually or committed to paper. These plans are a structure on which the component parts are gently hung. Running off willy-nilly is not often the focuser’s method. When a clear plan is decided, calm execution is likely to happen. It’s as if the focused person feels comfortable in the overall vision. Broad focus as well as close focus.

Peter Munk is a Canadian entrepreneur and philanthropist. Emigrating from Hungary via Switzerland at the end of the Second World War, he and his family barely escaped Bergen-Belsen. Picking grapes and putting himself through engineering school, Peter has thrived in several businesses. In addition to founding NYSE-listed Trizec Properties, he is also the founder and CEO of Barrick Gold, the world’s largest gold producer. You might say he has the golden touch. Peter is now in distribution mode. He recently gave the largest amount ever donated to a Canadian hospital. What Peter has to say about the art of life and business speaks also to the art of art. He’s a believer in trust, integrity and focus. Characteristically humble, Peter sees himself less well-endowed intellectually than he might wish. He feels that such a person must teach himself the ability to focus.

Failing focus is at the root of both failing business and failing art. “Is there more to this than meets the eye?” is the question that must be asked and the answer found. First solutions are not always the best solutions and marching on into the wee hours is part of the game. Focus means diligently finding better solutions when adequate solutions have already been found.

Best regards,

Robert

PS: “I’m not exactly an Einstein, so I compensate by being more focused.” (Peter Munk)

Esoterica: We are not born focusing. It’s an acquired skill that requires initial effort and constant upgrading. Backsliding can happen at any time. It’s as if the universe conspires to run interference on the best laid plans. The sad news is most people fail miserably in the focusing game — and that leaves the rarer ones who succeed. Character prevails. You can see it in the Munk’s offspring — they’re all super-achievers. “Though I was already wealthy I still watched them struggle to buy their own cars,” he says. “Melanie and I chose to give them the gift of poverty. They too learned to focus.”

 


Information bombardment
by Amy Evans, Breckenridge, CO, USA
 

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“Slippery Slopes”
oil painting, 16 x 20 inches
by Amy Evans

Focusing is difficult in this age of information bombardment. The trailers at the bottom of every news screen distract one from the news. The instant message alert on the computer screen distracts the viewer from other computer business. Then there’s call waiting, etc. Our times are bent on distracting us from focusing on anything. Our energy is diluted.

 

 

 

 


Blocking everything out
by Steve Reinhart, New York, NY, USA
 

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“Decoy”
latex and enamel painting
121.92 x 203.2 cm
by Steve Reinhart

I agree with the majority of the comments you made in “Focus” but did not agree with the “Running off willy-nilly is not often the focuser’s method” comment. Creativity is something that is taught to us during our lifetime – boxes have 4 sides, red and yellow make orange etc., etc. If I, as an artist, follow these rules of design by methodically planning my paintings, it’s inevitable my painting will end up “designed” and planned out — thus the need for me to stay focused as you put it.”

 

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“Harlequin’s Carnival”
by Joan Miro

“In my view I see two types of artist/art. One that designs and focuses on being precise and the other that doesn’t. Both types end up with something for us to look at but the latter type gives us much, much more to see. Miro confessed to creating one of his most famous works, Harlequin’s Carnival, while hallucinating due to a lack of food. Although, I have not starved myself for inspiration, I can speak from experience and say blocking everything out before creating something is an art in and of itself.

 


Art deserves focus and energy
by Evelyn Rose, UK
 

In order to focus it is necessary to believe that your objective is very important. I know that believing our artwork is very important will enable us to focus much better. It is hard to imagine there is a bold and happy army of painters who paint away when they can find that spare moment within a busy lifestyle. But I often find myself asking the question, “Why do they put their painting at the bottom of a very long list of other activities?” Why indeed is art not always taken to be a serious occupation? …One that deserves to have a lot of focus and energy invested in it.

I was reading recently about a young artist who lives in London and felt very inspired by her dedication to paint everyday. Whatever seems to be happening in her busy life — one being looking after a very fine vegetable garden and holding a knitting club (yes it seems young women do still knit jumpers!) she makes time to paint on a tiny canvas each day. This is a good example of being focused — whatever happens in her day she will paint her mini canvas. I believe this young artist to be a fine example of a painter who is truly focused on what she believes to be very important in her creative world.

 


Fulfilling but not fun
by Donald Demers, Eliot, ME, USA
 

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“View Down Sumner”
oil painting, 9 x 12 inches
by Donald Demers

The casual layperson who sees us painting often says, “Oh, that must be fun.” I suppose that can be said to a concert cellist or some other accomplished practitioner, but it always looks like fun when someone knows what they are doing. That apparent ease of skill comes from focus and diligence. Anything that exists in the physical world, had to exist in the invisible or mental world first. To see your artistic intention with clear uninterrupted vision first, is what is necessary to manifest it in the physical or visual world. One technique I use is to visually meditate. I sit for long periods of time envisioning the image that I intend to bring forth. While I am working on the piece I often take breaks and again sit with my eyes closed to envision the work again. It helps me stay focused and faithful to my original idea. It is the power of intention that helps one focus and stay committed. It’s exciting and fulfilling but it’s not easy or “fun”! Fun is time off!

 


Close call with ‘distraction disorder’
by Julie Nilsson, Ft. Collins, DC, USA
 

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“Cloth For Sale (Cuzco, Peru)”
acrylic painting
by Julie Nilsson

I had a close call with “distraction disorder” the other day as I was finishing a trilogy of three Peru paintings. While I had been on a roll with the first two, I seemed to be dragging to the studio to face the proverbial white canvas, a particular daunting task that day. A teacher once told me, “If you don’t feel like painting, don’t paint.” Not good advice for me! My distracters will lead me astray every time if I let them! So I began and, much to my surprise, the piece took over and led the way. I can’t paint every day, as my schedule just doesn’t permit, so when I am underway, it’s especially important to stay as focused, positive and on task as possible. And sometimes when I’m finished, I realize that whatever was ailing me has vanished completely! Often my busy mind will quiet down and attend to what’s good for the soul afterall.

 


Completing the puzzle
by Roger Asselin, St. Petersburg, FL, USA
 

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“A Puzzle”
acrylic painting
20 x 36 inches
by Roger Asselin

A double-minded man is an unstable man in all of his ways. He can be sure of little or no successes in his life. Conversely, a focused man will always walk a straighter path to all his successes and therefore will have more to gain.

Life is great enough a puzzle without trying to fit the pieces that have been dealt to us to complete it. The fitting piece will never be used until once found, twisted, and placed to fit the notch. Even the last piece has to be twisted and turned to find the right fit. There is no completion to life without focus; especially on the whole puzzle.

This painting illustrated is the now finished work of my absolute 1st painting as an artist 18 months of age. There is an under painting that I thought at the time was disgusting. Yet, I knew in my heart that there was a missing piece that could make it into something of great value especially to myself. I squirreled it away until a few months ago when I found the missing piece and completed it to what you see now. It took the regaining of my focus which was not so much the picture but the message I was trying to convey with this work.

 


Poverty builds character?
by Jody Smiling, White Rock, BC, Canada
 

Only the wealthy who have, or can purchase, pretty much everything they either want or need are able to give the ‘gift’ of poverty. I’ve heard this proudly wafted sentiment before, and it is always from a ‘self-made’ man who believes he is teaching his offspring (at least the legitimate ones) how to develop a backbone by ‘playing’ poor.

I worked for years on the downtown east side of Vancouver with real poor people and I can assure Mr. Bergen-Belsen that the gift of poverty doesn’t make strong backbones. The truth is, it tends to disintegrate them. It’s hard to “focus” on anything if you’re stomach is distended and your body is cold and your personal safety is threatened.

Anyways, to have any intrinsic value, a true magnanimous gift is giving something you have, not something that you don’t. In the case of Peter Munk, he kept what he had (wealth) and gave away what he didn’t (poverty).

Love your twice-weekly letter… it’s inspiring, amusing, delightful, and today … somewhat annoying but motivating a reply. It’s a true gift.

(RG note) Thanks, Jody. Then again, Peter gives a considerable portion of his wealth to his own and other charitable foundations for health, education and international relations. Peter has contributed greatly to the Toronto General Hospital, the Peter Munk Cardiac Center, and significant other charitable enterprises worldwide.

 


Mandala healing experience
by Jane Champagne, Southampton, ON, Canada
 

Your Focus article is timely and to the point. I spent last week at a Mandala workshop, learning about a new way of focusing. The mandala has been used in every century by most tribes and religions – it’s that circular, patterned, balanced medicine wheel, rose window, sand mandala, depending on what part of the world you live in and what you believe. I had been unable to focus on my painting for months, and found that every mark I put down on the circle led to the centre, the third eye, the spiritual, emotional and physical focus of my life. It was enlightening, a healing experience. Now, I can paint.

 


Focus on healing the earth
by Carolyn Megill, Toronto, ON, Canada
 

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photograph
by David Hawe
for ‘Now’ magazine

While I admire the philanthropy of the Munk family I must admit I am left cold by the thought that Barrick Gold is busy destroying Andean glaciers and peasant farmers’ only source of water in the pursuit of profit. The process of bringing ores and metals from beneath the earth’s surface into the light is always rife with danger to the environment… like unleashing and revealing long buried psychic wounds. The art of focus should be applied to healing the earth rather than exploiting the things that should better be left “underground.” With all his monies and philanthropic gestures it is amazing to think the focus is on accumulation rather than healing and social responsibility…

(RG note) Thanks, Carolyn. And thanks to the hundreds of others who voiced similar ideas on the worldwide destruction now taking place in the name of profit. More and more sensitive people are beginning to understand the responsibility we all have to Mother Earth.

 


Playing dead to the world
by Karen Sloan, Haliburton, ON, Canada
 

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“Hydrangea Impressions”
acrylic painting
by Karen Sloan

I read this once on a website and copied it because it helps me focus on creating my artwork. It was written by Rabbi Noah Weinberg and, although I’m not a devout religious person by any means, perhaps the following excerpt has a lesson for us all, at least it does for me!

“Life pulls us in many different directions and it’s hard to stay on track. Imagine a store owner who barely has a moment to breathe. He’d like to have a more meaningful life, but his business demands constant attention. Customers just won’t leave him alone. One night, he dreams that he dies from working too hard. The dream is so startling that he wakes up, gets out of bed, looks in the mirror and sees an old man with white hair. He immediately goes to the living room and begins reading philosophy books. His wife notices that he’s missing from bed. “It’s 3:30 in the morning! What are you reading at this hour that’s so important?”

“Dear, do you realize that I could die at any moment, and I would have spent the best years of my life at the store? So I’ve decided that from now on, I’m not coming to work until noon every day. I’m going to spend my mornings studying wisdom.”

“Are you crazy? You can’t do that!” his wife exclaims. “What will I tell the customers?”
“What will you tell the angel of death when he comes for me: That the customers are waiting? So for three hours each morning, just consider me dead!”

Of course, it’s not simple to take off time from work. But whatever you do, whenever you do it, be totally immersed and involved. Pretend as if you’re “dead to the world.” For that time, nothing should pull you away from the more meaningful task at hand. Nothing else exists.”

 


Queen of Distraction
by Susy Boyer, Nobby Beach, Queensland, Australia
 

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original artwork
by Susy Boyer

I’m pretty much the Queen of Distraction, partly due to regularly having too much on my plate (sole parent, three teenage sons, running own business etc.) but excuses aside, I confess to being a shocker when it comes to concentrating on the same task for long periods…and I seem to be getting worse! Funnily enough I am quite good at being organised and run some efficient systems in my studio and household… I always start a task with great planning, time management and enthusiasm, but before long I find myself being distracted by the veritable ‘shiny lizard’ and from there it’s a slippery slope to a land of abandoned ideas, unfinished tasks, stressful late nights or missed deadlines. I have for a long time felt that I am capable of achieving more, been frustrated that I seem to sabotage my own success and have struggled to find a solution. So I’m thrilled to hear that the ability to focus is a skill that can be learned! How?

(RG note) Thanks, Susy. When the time and opportunity are appropriate, set yourself up for total concentration on one project or another for a specific, short period of time — say twenty minutes. Pay attention to the clock. If you can refuse to be distracted for this short period, you can do the same for incrementally longer times. This is how habit paths are built. This is how a new you will emerge as the Queen of Focus.

 


Meditate to focus
by Toni Ciserella, Marysvale, UT, USA
 

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“Bountiful”
pastel painting
by Toni Ciserella

I have struggled with focusing all my life. I have ADD. I chose not to medicate -instead I meditate. At times I can hyperfocus so intently that all else is blocked out. When I use this adaptability I have learned, I can lose myself in my art. Self-hypnosis (trance-like state) is what I use to help me get into the hyperfocus mode. Shutting off the phone, removing any loud distractions helps. One can learn to focus more intently, but it takes alot of practice and discipline to control ones mind. A simple technique to practice is to stare at an object and see how long you can keep your mind on it without it wandering. You’ll find that just by concentrating on it you start to see the object in a new way. You begin to notice it’s texture, color, form. It’s relation to it’s surroundings. Pulling yourself back to the object each time your mind begins to wander, forces you to focus more intently on it thus seeing things in it you may never have noticed. Wonderful way to get new ideas.

 

Archived Comments

Enjoy the past comments below for Focus

 

 

From: Brad Michael Moore — Aug 23, 2007

I’m with you, Carolyn Megill, meanwhile Russia is putting its flag on the ocean floor of the North Pole. Such is the reminder that while, “Nature can be merciless – Humankind can be even less…”For those of us who can invest in stocks, should consider committing 10 to 25% of their portfolio to “Green Stocks,” – one way to steer our children’s future towards a canvas greater in potential than the, “Scorched Earth,” corporate mentality so prevalent up to now. Pray we focus on our travails, and inspiration will come to feed us…

From: Steve Koch — Aug 23, 2007

I have been watching – listening to this argument about raping the planet for the sake of profit for a long time…..and while we are all able to have and voice our opinions…..I think we would do well to consider the bottom line…that were it not for the “pillage” in some form or manner of our natural resources…not only would we still be a global society of hunters and gatherers….but most if not all of the people that enjoy and contribute to this website….could not….nor could they paint….or draw……or listen to music…..or enjoy any other cultural expression…known to our modern world….something to think about the next time one receives a parcel of supplies…..or an email from an encouraging friend…or the cars we drive or the houses we live in…..all brought to us by the wonderful world of some forward looking entrepreneur who had to use our precious natural resources to get “it”….”there”…….and thank God that they have sense to share their profits that our world would be enriched… culturally…physically…emtionally….spiritually

From: Sherry Purvis — Aug 24, 2007

I agree with Steve Koch in his assessment of where we are and how we got there. One cannot just look around and decide that we have overdone it without taking stock on how they are living their own lives. In the past 50 years alone technology has so advanced that we have become unrecognizable when it comes to seeing beyond our own needs. Do we want to reverse this and say, now everyone has to stop what they are doing and go back 50 years to what was, or do we become responsible for our own actions. It is easy to blame someone else, but I do believe we are all in this together. If it were not for those who have jumped ahead and made things easier for us, where would we be and how would we handle things. I guess that is a question that will go unanswered. I, for one, am grateful for those who have tried to make life easier for us, but also know the value of giving back to the community.

From: Richard Jordan — Aug 24, 2007

Dear Robert: Your link to Peter Munk might be expanded to include this one – http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Barrick_Gold As in the case of most if not all the big philanthropists past and present, it might be in order to examine the source of the wealth so generously bestowed before holding any of these folks out as a positive example. Of course giving a portion of this wealth away is better than hording it as many do, but as you point out today, balanced understanding is the mark of the evolved intellect. The environmental and litigation record of Barrick Gold speaks volumes and mitigates against the man’s philanthropy. I’ll let the link complete my comment. Best regards, Richard Jordan

From: Is Nature always focused? — Aug 24, 2007

We have to accept our winters, springs, summers and falls. As nature needs winter to have a spring, we have to accept our quiet periods that are sometimes our most creative time for a rebirth. Tsouo-Harvey

From: Barbara Mason — Aug 24, 2007

Jody totally missed the point, Peter gave his children the satisfaction of doing things for themselves and made them stronger for it. When all is given to you, there is not much motivation to accomplish much. I think the word poverty is totally misinterpreted in this instance…he does not really mean poverty, it is a metaphor. Struggling to buy your first car or 10 speed bike is a long way from struggling to feed yourself or your family when there is no hope of being able to do so.

From: Anonymous — Aug 24, 2007

Dear Steve Kotch: Of course you are right in saying without some form of exploitation of the planet and entrepreneurial effort, we would all be stuck at or before the hunter gatherer stage of social evolution. However, as in most things, balance and moderation are the keys to well being and a sustainable civilization. When utilization of resources becomes “rape” we all need to step back and rethink at what price “progress” and question when payment is made, just who is paying the bill. When this step is taken, it is clear in my view at least, that some of the most successful entrepreneurs and corporations are virulent in their excesses and they cannot make up for the damage they inflict by pointing to a rising share price or their charitable works. I hope that progress is not necessarily an all or nothing proposition. However, it may well be that it is and we simply cannot control our rapacious nature so that in the end we humans are no better than the virus that eventually kills its host. Best regards, Richard Jordan

From: Wanda Doyle — Aug 24, 2007

It wasn’t until I completed a Fire Walking seminar (not recommended to create your own fire walk!) that I really understood the meaning of focus. Keeping focussed on the space beyond the fire (the goal), so that fearful thoughts could not enter my mind, was a huge life lesson. The ability to focus has made me so much more productive and confident in my life.

From: Janet Sellers — Aug 24, 2007

Hi, Oh, I missed writing back on the right day. You know, poverty does not make one focus unless one has the wealth of hope. True poverty is hopelessness. Holding on and persevering to a dream is hope; not being able to grasp the dream in the first place, or losing hold is hopelessness. Few self-made persons ever had a hopeless poverty behind them. I know of none, but will allude it is possible. With a cruel miser for a dad, a child will learn hopelessness and poverty of spirit without a benefactor enriching their lives with hope in another human. The greatest benefactors to human lives in my book are those who share their wealth of hope from their own experiences of using it. It’s free, and there is an endless supply once a person knows where to connect with it. That, my dears, is wealth.

From: Jean McLaren — Aug 24, 2007

A male painter friend told me one day that he is amazed at how women seem to be able to focus on more than one task at a time. I think that is especially true of women with husbands and children. And to find time for yourself alone at that time is HARD. I am now without all those things (husbands and children) around me and find that at 80 years old I can still concentrate on one thing and yet don’t allow the distractions to mess up what I really want to do. I paint almost every day, and while I am waiting for the paint to dry – I use a lot of gels for texture – I wash the dishes, or throw a load of clothes in the washer, or grab something to eat. Then I am ready to refocus. I am able to get a lot of painting done.

From: Anonymous — Aug 24, 2007

It’s gratifying to hear from so many artists who are well informed on ecological issues and the realities of poverty. The control and exploitation of the earth’s resources to intensify the accumulation of wealth, power and privilege in a few hands is the major cause of poverty. Steve Koch’s argument is based on the fallacious rhetoric that has been used to justify colonialism and today’s multi-national economy. Portraying all pre-indutrialist civilizations as “a global society of hunters and gatherers” does not fit the facts. One reason we have knowledge of previous civilizations is that artists, craftmen, musicians, architects, etc. have always flourished. If I had lived 20,000 years ago, I might be playing a bone or reed flute instead of a modern silver boehm model. The pigments and glue of my hand drum I would have had to create myself rather than using Ceramcoat and Lepages. My subject matter and techniques would reflect that culture as some still do. But I would still be an artist, perhaps having to still earn a living in an outside job, but possibly supported by my community. For an appreciation of the importance of art in all civilizations, take an art history course. For a better understanding of some pre-industrial and pre-colonial civilizations, read something like “1491” by Charles C. Mann (Vintage Books). Good discussion and one that will remind me to consider what impacts, both positive and negative, my activities as an artist might have on our ecology.

From: Anonymous — Aug 24, 2007

When I hear and see all the nonsense in this world, as represented by the press, I get discouraged. When I read the lucid alternatives that are offered in various books that Love and Life have inspired, I am hopeful. When I observe that almost all of these viable and blessed alternative expressions remain ignored by the media and its addicts, I am discouraged all over again. I feel as if I am a nurse in a world that adheres to a religion that disallows blood transfusions! The solutions exist. They’re just ignored and denied. Meanwhile, I am consoled by the prospect of death, and a change of scenery. This planet is such a slap in the face!

From: Tina Mammoser — Aug 27, 2007

Focus? as I take a break from glazing to reply here. That’s a difficult one for me and I find it amusing that one of the related links is back to your article on ADD many moons ago. That letter literally changed my life, for the better I would add so a very belated thank you. So here I am nodding in agreement but at the same time admitting focus is probably my biggest obstacle. I usually set out my day in 15-30 minute blocks, or at least a well-broken down to-do list for the week. Though like Toni who posted above I can also have the hyper-attention days painting and end up mentally exhausted. I like those days too! But they’re rarer for me. I catch myself in your example situation of constantly pushing myself into more hours out of guilt of not being productive enough, and actually becoming less effective. This is something I’ve seriously addressed since this spring, a ‘bedtime’ for work regardless of how my to-do list looks. Another very recent positive discovery for me is a 20 minutes mid-day motivation meditation. I found a rather cheesy American commercial meditation audio series (which I can recommend if anyone wants to contact me) but I’ve found one audio that specifically works for me. So whatever works, use it! :) And my painting at the bottom of the page does make me giggle given the theme today. Appropriate. (thanks!)

From: Frank Armistead — Aug 27, 2007

Sorry, my anonymity was accidental. My name is Frank Armistead, cfa.artist.hotmail.com. “it’s gratifying to hear …”

 

 

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Sea Wall

acrylic painting
by Tina Mammoser, Greenwich, London, England

 

You may be interested to know that artists from every state in the USA, every province in Canada, and at least 115 countries worldwide have visited these pages since January 1, 2013.

That includes Helen Musser of Terrell, TX, USA who wrote, “Creating art is an all-consuming desire. Finding focus on a particular subject can be elusive but rewarding when you finally decide your inner voice is guiding you in the right directions.”

And also Nancy Moskovitz of Ocala, FL, USA who wrote, “Regarding focus, please let me suggest Jack Canfield’s The Success Principles as well as books by Seth Godin.”

And also Kil Linford who wrote, “I am too focused. On writing. Sometimes I let other things that I ought to be taking care of just sit there and I continue to write. It’s because you have this idea and you’re focused on it, and if you don’t get it all down now, you think you’re likely to forget it or alter it, and it’s got to be done before that happens. Once you get it down, another one hits. It’s never-ending.”

And also Luke Charchuk of Surrey, BC, Canada who wrote, “I know a lot of creative people who are borderline schizophrenic, a.d.d., bi-polar, dyslexic, etc., who get lost in their creativity and are very susceptible to distraction because of their hyper-sensitivity. Focus is like a camera, you can set it to auto and just press the shutter, viola~! but is it discerning and is it valid, or simply more noise?”

And also Louis A. (Tony) Curiel who wrote, “As I get older I find that the “art” of focusing becomes a little more difficult. One has to practice it continuously.”

And also Katherine S. Harris of Bracciano (Rome), Italy who wrote, “In today’s ruminations, you risk excluding women who pay attention to their children, run a household, serve as a taxi for the family, attend PTA, garden, volunteer, etc. etc. Who can “focus” with several kids vying for one’s attention?”

And also Catherine Jones of Melbourne, Australia who wrote, “I have “baby wheels” on my paintings, and the thoughts, guidance and tips you put on cyberspace have really inspired me and have pulled me out of a lack of confidence.”

 

 

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