The phone rang early — it was an artist friend from the other side of Earth. A recent collaboration had left him feeling humiliated: “I compromised my vision, thinking I could get through it,” he said, “and in the end it didn’t pay off; I lost the job anyway.”
An early lesson at the bottom of my parents’ property came to mind, where I was learning to be a painter in a re-configured boat shed. A client, in search of a treasure, found the shed constraining and asked if she could commission something specific. In need of Fall tuition and hungry for the experience, I agreed and set to work on a stranger’s painting. Though the subject and style departed from the summer’s passions, I wanted to believe I could be her treasure-maker.
A few weeks later, the painting was ready to go. Like a beast of burden, it groaned under the weight of its overworking and alien vibe. It gave off, to me, an ineffable stench — a kind of forced phoniness of inspiration and execution. After a long silence, my would-be client said, “Thank you, no” and left painting-less. I never saw her again.
Once alone, I let the rejection heat up like a bad rash — kicking myself for the terrible attempt and questioning my fledgling abilities in general. “Never again,” I promised my passions. I promised, whatever they were, to let them sprout, unfettered. Years later, my dad told me the story of a client who kept asking for improvements to her commissioned portrait. He eventually mailed her a box of paints and brushes. In time, we both improved at keeping commissions our own.
These days, between long stretches of muse-driven autonomy, an occasional commission is a welcome satellite to an existing, spinning world.
PS: “I am not afraid of storms, for I am learning how to sail my ship.” (Louisa May Alcott)
Esoterica: Artists may embrace or eschew commissions, depending on personal metabolism, flexibility, range, systems or motivations. Some artists pick up the brushes only when they’re at hand. To avoid slipping into mere fulfillment of another’s imaginings at the expense of one’s own, a clear voice must be cultivated and established, unique in its contours, the tip-off for any potential collaborator. Stake out your homestead, set down roots, make your treasure. “It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.” (e. e. cummings)
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“Only you can find that passion within that burns with an integrity that will not settle for anything less than the Truth.” (Adyashanti)
Suitable for all levels, students will be exposed to fundamental watercolor techniques such as composition, colour mixing and design. This will be followed by exploring mixed media. Line work, resists, collage, the use of crayons and inks and other types of mixed media will be introduced.
Fee $550.00 for more info visit our website at http://gibsonsartschool.net/
Mary’s interest in pastel painting began during her years at Whitworth College in Spokane, WA where she majored in art and elementary education. Though she has worked in watercolor and oil as well as calligraphy, her interest has consistently turned primarily to pastel because of the medium’s potential for glowing, vibrant color and the harmony achieved in bringing together lights and shadows.