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Those of us who feel compelled to do things and make things are very fortunate. Our attitudes may be catalytic to dopamine production. Oh, and good quality dark French Roast doesn’t hurt, either!
The down times are for cleaning up the studio after the chaos of creation. Just be careful what you throw out, at these times. It’s a lot like sex, isn’t it?
Degree of libido may have something to do with keeping on keeping on.
We all strive for that optimum mindset that produces creativity. What amuses me is we think a particular set of circumstances can magically pluck inspiration from new paints, a good nights sleep, or whatever. With any triumph we try to reproduce the same happy accident. But when it doesn’t? No person can have mountain top experiences layered one upon another. We reach the heights and descend to the lows with regular frequency … that is the human experience, and some have suffered crushing misfortune. It is those artists who persevere over debilitating circumstances that inspire me. It is those who never won a juried show, never were applauded for their skill, those who regardless of criticism continue to create and serve their calling as artists. The only difference between a winner and a loser is when one quits. It’s getting up over and over and refusing to surrender. Now that is a life long dose of dopamine that will never be in need of a fix.
Thank you so much for this post. I have gotten off anti-depressants after taking them for fifteen plus years. I have my ups and downs but for the most part things are stable. I really enjoyed reading this and realize that I am fortunate to have the tools to feel better. I experience all the feelings that you express before and after a show or sale – so textbook. Anyway, all the best, things are looking up.
Thanks Robert, this is a great letter. My mom passed away in December. It’s knocked the wind out of me doing my art. But she was an artist and would want me to continue my artist journey. So your message here will give me the boost I need to carry on.
Five girlfriends, from four different states have created the monthly Tutti Fruitti Challenge. (We somehow got the name Tutti Fruitties???) Each month, one of us picks a subject and we all paint our version of it. Then we compare on line. Its amazing, how that gets us going on our art work, and also painting subjects we might not otherwise choose to paint.
As complex creatures we never know the full extent of our interaction with our enviroment. Pinpointing the particulars of our motivation involves the realms of time and space that can not be reproduced. The eastern mind looks for repitition that creates patterns while the western mind strains to see the outcome or ending of the story. Creativity understands the fleeting moment and cherishes it as a history . The future cycles not to a beginning but rather an ending. This creates a scense of urgency and leads to an awakening of creativity!
I thought catatonia was another word for January. I have given myself permission to hibernate in January for some years now. It seems to work better that way.
As both a red cross responder and two time burnout victim….catatonia is sometimes nothing more than the normal need to be “absobluminutely still” after a high demand period. Those who can honor that logic last longer, better and more happily. Something happens and our minds and bodies are not dumb – they know when they’ve gone farther and harder than is prudent and yet, like a racer, cannot stop till the finish line. But then….. or else. I love modern medicine and fitness – part of my life ! But there is the temptation taken by the poorly skilled to NOT allow the bodies natural miracle to BE. To dance in jubilation at extraordinary good news is logical and right for the best human experience – but even King David had to fight for his right to dance naked in the street in victory when the war was won. I promise you, that we will exterminate ourselves one day by failing act out the basics in happiness, sorrow, discovery, resolution, focus, discipline, intimacy, and pure celebration and more. ….and catatonia , when the logical thing is to just cool it and let the psyche restore itself. If, after a bit , restoration fails ….OK then do something, but in the meantime, honor the soul.
Where’s the old spirit? “Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, start all over again.”
I know what it’s like to get a boost from art. There’s the boost from self-admiration for some work you’ve created that moves you. There’s the boost of the ‘likes’, kind comments and positive feedback you receive from others. There’s the boost from selling a piece and having the client truly be moved by the acquisition. More’s the case for me, however, that it takes sheer discipline to keep on painting in the face of self doubt, fear, anxiety, or those quiet times when your art business is as quiet as a lonely fall leaf drifting on the forest winds. It takes an inner struggle and effort to take actions to overcome those moments. Turning on the radio, fiddling in your studio, doodling, sketching or seeking a subject / design for your next painting. Anything that gets the heart pumping and the body in motion is key. A body in motion tends to stay in motion. Even if all you can to is take small steps, do anything you can to keep on keeping on and stay positive!
If you’re not excited, you’re not excited, and any amount of faked enthusiasm won’t make it happen and it doesn’t fool anyone, but there is something you can do that in its own sneaky way primes the pump–it’s physical exercise–in all its forms, always good. Just do it!
The plein air painter who hikes to his or her locations just naturally does fresher, more vigorous and inspired work.
Dopamine was first synthesized in 1910 by George Barger and James Ewens at Wellcome Laboratories in London, England. In 1958, Arvid Carlsson and Nils-Ake Hillarp, at the Laboratory for Chemical Pharmacology of the National Heart Institute of Sweden, discovered the function of dopamine as a neurotransmitter. Arvid Carlsson was awarded the 2000 Nobel Prize in Physiology or Medicine for showing that dopamine is not just a precursor of norepinephrine and epinephrine but a neurotransmitter, as well.
Our word “dope” comes from dopamine. Whatever it is, it feels good.
Whenever I experience Catatonia, which I certainly due from time to time. I usually find myself walking around, sighing, mumbling, cleaning the house, wondering if today is the day I should organize my closets, weed the garden, anything anything but paint or even think about painting. I will set up a still life and stare at it. Attend a life drawing class and look at the model in horror wondering where in the world to start? Drive around in circles trying to find some place to paint that will give me the boost that I need. Luckily this state of inactivity does not last very long. I usually end up picking up old art magazines, thumbing through a good art book, surf the web, or even reading a book usually accompanied by a nice cup of tea. I dont pressure myself to be productive. I feel like this daydreaming is par for the course. It is preparation for the next big painting venture. If I am feeling particularly energetic, which usually doesnt happen in the state of catatonia, I will get in the car and ride around. Sometimes I will go to my old haunts that have provided so many wonderful days of painting or try out a new road that might take me to a secret undiscovered hideaway just perfect for the next painting. I think the important thing to realize is that we are not machines. Our habits are formed by good studio practice but even the best of painters have off days or even weeks. Just relax, and keep poking around, take yourself to a museum that usually does the trick for me. I visit my favorite paintings which are like old friends. I always feel motivated and uplifted after seeing beautiful artwork that is a treat for the eyes and heart and soon I feel motivated to paint again.
We easily set ourselves up for depression and disappointment by bundling all our hopes in future events designed to impart happiness. Mainly, lasting happiness is not found in any destination, whether it be a physical place or a destination of achievement. As has often been said, the joy found in traveling the road, whatever that maybe, far outweighs the fleeting happiness of the destination. In art, enjoy the journey with others as well as yourself. Share in the successes of others as well as your own. Looks for paintings in everything we see and revel in things that only artists can appreciate!
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Current neuropsychiatric research clearly demonstates that one’s production of dopamine is to a large extent genetic. I love your letters, but in this one instance believe that our ability to produce adequate dopamine is complicated.
Metallica 2 acrylic painting, 18 x 24 inches by Marilyn Harris, Okanagan Valley, BC, Canada |
Sharon, I just looked at your website. Stunning portraiture! I am one of your new fans…